>I am…I am not

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 (This is an updated version of a post I wrote in April, 2009)
During this process of becoming, I have found it helpful to enter a spirit of reflectiveness and take note of who I am at this moment and who I am not. The list is a hodgepodge of sorts…some of it humorous…some of it deep…all of it honest.
I am flawed; I am not hopeless
I am competitive; I am not cunning
I am weak; I am not too weak to admit my mistakes
I am in love with my husband; I am not always kind to my husband
I am a mother; I am not always skilled at mothering
I am encouraged when I remember that Christ is more than enough; I am not suppose to be enough for anyone
I am heartbroken for those who suffer; I am not going to deny the existence of hope
I am sometimes jealous of others; I am not going to thrust myself into the spotlight
I am contemplative; I am not shy
I am joyful; I am not always happy
I am stubborn; I am not unyielding
I am cautious; I am not against spontaneity
I am unintentionally quirky; I am not funny unless I am not trying to be funny
I am in my thirties; I am not able to metabolize food like I did when I was in my twenties
I am adventurous; I am not careless
I am a writer; I am not a singer…or a dancer
I am cute; I am not glamorous or traffic-stopping beautiful
I am fine with the fact that I am not traffic-stopping beautiful; I am not interested in plastic surgery
I am a work of art made by the creator of art; I am not ashamed of my Creator’s design
I am loyal; I am not afraid to establish boundaries
I am committed to taking care of our planet; I am not one who worships the creation instead of the creator
I am understanding; I am not going to ignore truth
I am compassionate and merciful; I am not always a good listener
I am emotional; I am not irrational
I am talkative; I am not always going to know the right words to say
I am forgiven; I am not able to forget my wrongdoings
I am gifted; I am not able to do all that I desire
I am a member of the body of Christ; I am not meant to live life just for myself.
I am loved…I am chosen…I am the daughter of the King of Kings; I am not going to hide my true identity.
Who are you? Who are you not?

Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man’s gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.” Romans 12:4-10 NIV

32 thoughts on “>I am…I am not

  1. >What a great list of “ams” and “am nots”. Terrific!! I am most of those things:I am in my early 40’s; I am not as uncomfortable with that as when I actually turned 40.I am a homeschooler of 5 children; I am not always the most patient teacher.I am a work in progress; I am not ever giving up on displaying the fruits of the Spirit as I grow closer to Christ.

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  2. >What a great reflection of who you are ….and are not. I am most of those too. I am smart; I am not always able to recall information. (I find this extremely annoying!)Blessings, SusanD

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  3. >I really appreciated this post. It reminded me of a Beth Moore study, while I was watching the video I was struck with her saying “I am THIS, not THAT.” And she was talking about this sort of thing. Believing the truth over lies, not speaking lies to ourselves that keep us stuck.Great post.

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  4. >I love this list. I will have to think upon some things I am and things I am not. I love yours, however. I am 45 and loving my life, I am not 18 and wishing I was older. I am full of experiences of life, I am not unexperienced in everything. I am full of the will to try new things, I am not afraid to fail. Love and Hugs ~ Kat

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  5. >Awesome list, very thought provoking.I am striving to be patient, I am not afraid to apologize when I lose my temper with my children.I am blessed by the many women I’ve met through blogging, I am probably not ever going to meet most of them in person…and that is too bad!

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  6. >I am really tired; I am not going to pass up telling you how much I loved this post! :)Okay, I read it earlier today when I didn’t have time to comment…but I’m still making sure I come back by to tell you I love it! I could cut and paste so much of what you said and put it up on an “I am…I am not” post on my own blog! 🙂 When’s your birthday? Maybe we were seperated at birth. 😉

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  7. >Hmmmm…but you would be the sister who is the better speller, I am sure. 😉 That is separated…not seperated. Oh, well. 🙂 Told ya’ I’m tired. 🙂

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  8. >It has been a tough week for me. A very special friend, Godparent to my children, lost his battle to cancer. It is times like this, when I am under stress, sad, tired, etc…that I tend to be hardest on myself. I feel like I am not enough. Boy did your words speak to me tonight. I know it is ok to not ‘be’ everything. I know there is aways room for improvement…I know HE is enough. Even though I know all this…thank you for reminding me, in your own way. (What, you didn’t write that just for me…that’s ok…thanks anyway!)

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  9. >I think I will sit with this and make my own list. What a great way to figure out who you were, who you are and who you want to become. Thank you for sharing your list:)

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  10. >Hi Angela,I can so relate to your list. Almost every word. Except for the 30 part – but I’d like to start counting backwards now so maybe I can get there again. 🙂

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  11. >Cool list!I am a mommy, not a perfect mommy, but I stay home and raise my babes for the Lord. I don’t have it all together, my house is frequently messy and my hair doesn’t always get brushed, but I am not a bad mom.

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