(This is an updated version of a post I wrote in April, 2009)
During this process of becoming, I have found it helpful to enter a spirit of reflectiveness and take note of who I am at this moment and who I am not. The list is a hodgepodge of sorts…some of it humorous…some of it deep…all of it honest.
I am flawed; I am not hopeless
I am competitive; I am not cunning
I am weak; I am not too weak to admit my mistakes
I am in love with my husband; I am not always kind to my husband
I am a mother; I am not always skilled at mothering
I am encouraged when I remember that Christ is more than enough; I am not suppose to be enough for anyone
I am heartbroken for those who suffer; I am not going to deny the existence of hope
I am sometimes jealous of others; I am not going to thrust myself into the spotlight
I am contemplative; I am not shy
I am joyful; I am not always happy
I am stubborn; I am not unyielding
I am cautious; I am not against spontaneity
I am unintentionally quirky; I am not funny unless I am not trying to be funny
I am in my thirties; I am not able to metabolize food like I did when I was in my twenties
I am adventurous; I am not careless
I am a writer; I am not a singer…or a dancer
I am cute; I am not glamorous or traffic-stopping beautiful
I am fine with the fact that I am not traffic-stopping beautiful; I am not interested in plastic surgery
I am a work of art made by the creator of art; I am not ashamed of my Creator’s design
I am loyal; I am not afraid to establish boundaries
I am committed to taking care of our planet; I am not one who worships the creation instead of the creator
I am understanding; I am not going to ignore truth
I am compassionate and merciful; I am not always a good listener
I am emotional; I am not irrational
I am talkative; I am not always going to know the right words to say
I am forgiven; I am not able to forget my wrongdoings
I am gifted; I am not able to do all that I desire
I am a member of the body of Christ; I am not meant to live life just for myself.
I am loved…I am chosen…I am the daughter of the King of Kings; I am not going to hide my true identity.
Who are you? Who are you not?
“Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man’s gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.” Romans 12:4-10 NIV